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Friday, October 29, 2004
of late i seem to be offending people. by making sweeping statements; by being overbearing; by a display of pomposity. i do not believe that this is the me now. there was nothing like this in the old me. yet, there is definitely something wrong. i can sense it.
can i be overreading? being too perceptive for my own good? i do not know. but i do know that i am uncomfortable when interacting with others. there is this intense self-consciousness that so many pairs of eyes are on you, all laughing and sneering at you and your stupidity. still, it might be my own psychological constructs.
i want to move away from this detestable being. move on to something more bearable. something more acceptable. socially acceptable? i suppose so. because i want society's recognition? i do not know. maybe that is what everyone yearns for, subconsciously.
the other thing that disturbs me is this innate sense of drifting. i do not seem to be getting anyway. a lack of vision. what can be the problem? anyhow i will have to get my act together before it is too late.
can i be overreading? being too perceptive for my own good? i do not know. but i do know that i am uncomfortable when interacting with others. there is this intense self-consciousness that so many pairs of eyes are on you, all laughing and sneering at you and your stupidity. still, it might be my own psychological constructs.
i want to move away from this detestable being. move on to something more bearable. something more acceptable. socially acceptable? i suppose so. because i want society's recognition? i do not know. maybe that is what everyone yearns for, subconsciously.
the other thing that disturbs me is this innate sense of drifting. i do not seem to be getting anyway. a lack of vision. what can be the problem? anyhow i will have to get my act together before it is too late.
